With Jeff seeking what God's new chapter in life and work would be for him, I find myself back to the place where I have to live my life trusting in Him on a daily basis.

Not knowing what the future brings can have quite a spiritual impact on me.  You might say it builds character.  But not just any character.  It's building in me the dependence on my Heavenly Father and building a Christ-like character in me. 

Now that makes me sound saintly, doesn't it?

Oh I'm far from perfect, and I'm far from being the spitting image of my Savior.  I like to plan, I'm a list-maker.  Unfortunately, I entertain the "worst case scenarios" ... I guess I do this in order to prepare myself for what could happen?  And that can lead to worry and that takes me away, takes my trust away from where it is designed to be...in His hands.  And there are many days when I flip flop like a fish out of water. 

"It's going to be okay"
"But what if ..."
"God knows exactly where we are, He's been here, and He's already where we'll be tomorrow"
"What if we have to move?"
"I'd like to move, but what would that mean for family left behind?"

And so in this season of not knowing, God is building my character by demanding my trust, and commanding my ways...and I can't see where the next step is...
like walking blindfold, I have no idea what to expect next- but I know who is leading me, and even if I have to countless times return to the point of trust, I know who holds tomorrow and I know who holds my hands.