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Ever have one of those days where you pour your heart out to God- and ask Him for something...for someone else...but then you feel let down? As if God owed anything to anyone.
I know.
And trust Him.
I know.
And He has a plan.
I KNOW!
But, honestly, I prayed and begged and pleaded for my older brother to have a boy. They had their ultrasound on their 3rd child today. Another girl. It's a healthy girl, so I should be doing jumping jacks, especially since one of the girls had a two vessel cord, kidney issues, etc.
And in the eternal grand scheme of things...does it really matter? Children are blessings and each one gives us joy unmeasurable.
But I can't help but to take my disappointment to God. And I feel that is what He wants us to do.
Be honest with Him.
That's the only place where He can start to do a work within us. Where we take it to Him and be honest. Dealing with the disappointment of someone else, to me, is harder sometimes then dealing with disappointment yourself. I know how much he wanted a father-son relationship.
So Lord, I'm disappointed...but I trust you. And I ask that those of us disappointed questioning ones would come to you with honest hearts, and that we would trust You. But we can only do that when You help us, Lord. |
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